24 May 2007
C'est La Vie
The single life is mine again, turns out the ex boyfriend wasn't actually as mature as I thought, hmmmm, that was a shock.....
After a year or so of being together he decides two hours is a little bit too much effort to come see me once in a while, the boy has dedication, not. He has known this distance was impending for a while now, as in 4 months, now I'm not being funny here, but even I don't take that long to come to a decision! After him demanding space & then saying ''The distance is too much, I thought I could do it but I can't'' has pissed me off to be honest, especially when it was him saying the distance definitely wouldn't be a problem & things would be fine, don't worry. Apparently I was too demanding, the lapdance thing was no big deal & did I really expect him to give up his night out ''with the lads''? Well actually yes I did, I can see how very demanding that makes me & how I need to change my ways ASAP. I can also see how I ''only have myself to blame'' & ''we can still be friends'', graciousness has now made it's star appearance I see. Oh well, they say every cloud has a silver lining, my silver lining being I shall be saving ££ on mobile bill's & I now have the weekends of a single girl, nights on the town, days on the town & the chance to be selfish, ie; not have to consider somebody else & they're feelings/what they're doing etc. I still maintain he is a twat but hopefully I won't feel so arrgghh in a few weeks because he is, & I don't believe I'm saying this, a nice person, I do have a habit of seeing the good in everybody & everything, I need to start wising up I think!