I tell him that actually, yes I do mind being as I've taken the trouble to get up to see him & it isn't even midday Saturday yet so we haven't exactly had chance to do much, his reply was ''I told you about it, you knew it was a possibility'' riiiiight. I don't see the point of having an argument over it but let him know I'm not best pleased & come home. Text him that evening to tell him I'm home safe & I'll speak to him tomorrow (Sunday).
I don't moan about him spending time with his mates, going out or anything like that & I'm not jealous or possessive, as in I don't think the worst if he's talking to other girls while we're out or if a girl gives him the eye, I trust him not to cheat & I'm not insecure nor do I turn into a screaming banshee if he goes out with female friends etc etc.
Lads night out & strip club - fine. Private lapdance - not fine, especially when it's me he's effectively given the boot for the evening when I've taken the trouble to travel up & see him, I told him this & his reply? ''But I walked you to the station'' Oh, whoopee do, sorry if I'm not being as grateful as you think I should be for that but I'M YOUR GIRLFRIEND NOT A CASUAL F**K! I did say that to him & then took a deep breath before I lost the plot completely & explained WHY I wasn't happy & he still didn't get it as ''it was only a lapdance, not like I did anything''. Ok he didn't do anything but I don't think he's been fair, at all, so now I've told him how I feel about the whole thing it has led to a slightly cool atmosphere between us.
I think for the next month or so I won't make such a big effort & make him do some work, not to mention grovelling!
Just feeling a bit low & not that great seeing as this lapdancer was apparently so ''brilliant'', felt like saying to him well how about you ask her to be your girlfriend being as she is apparently that great. I feel so riled & it isn't like me, I think maybe him going away for 2 weeks will give me time to cool off & him a chance to have a think & maybe realise he hasn't been that fair. He's been pretty quiet the past few days so who knows, maybe he already feels slightly guilty. I know we're solid so it isn't that it's just as I said, I feel a little bit taken advantage of & walked over, maybe it's about time I started being a bit more selfish? Mens opinions welcome & I promise next post will be a sunnier one! :o)