WHY!!! HE was the one that ended it.
HE was the one that quite frankly couldn't be bothered with the effort.
HE was the one who behaved like a child!
Except now HE realises what HE finished & realises what HE wants back I'm expected to go along with it?! It was HIS choice.
HE wanted it. HE chose for things to be done with.
Are you noticing a pattern here? It's all HIM, HIM, HIM!!!! Sod what I felt or wanted 3 weeks ago, I could Fuck Off 3 weeks ago, I was a spoilt, selfish, jealous ridden bitch 3 weeks ago! Obviously I must be, because isn't that the automatic conclusion to reach when your girlfriend lets you know she isn't happy with lapdancers, all night drinking & partying when she's made the effort to travel 2 hours to see you & changed her plans, is good enough for you to get your leg over with one night & kicked back home the next because you want some cheap thrills in a lapdancing/strip bar?! Yes, obviously I'm the selfish one....
He has behaved like a complete child the past 3 weeks, it is ridiculous, he is 21, well 22 2 weeks ago, for goodness sake!
I'm fed up with his holier than thou attitude he has had the past month, I'm fed up with it being all him him him, I'm fed up with his mouthing off when I asked him to make a bit of effort & meet me halfway (quite literally sometimes) fed up with his immature behaviour & most of all fed up with hearing about his perfect fucking lapdancer!!!! Although I admit. that was maybe said more to get a reaction than anything which I'm proud to say it didn't, well, not until I'd put the phone down then the pillow got it I'm afraid, it didn't suffer too much. It did help imagining it was his delicates though. And after all that he expects me to say
"oh yes darling, let's get back together, I've missed you & your me me me attitude so much, I just don't know what to do with myself, I mean I'm actually doing what I want without having to consider somebody else"
AND I'M DAMN WELL ENJOYING IT!!!!!
I'm so mad, don't know if you guessed? My keyboard is getting hammered & I'm tapping my foot in that "I'm so angry I could skewer you & spit roast you quite happily, right now" way.
*Breathes deeply & counts to 10*
End result of the conversation was me thanking him for his kind offer but unfortunately I'd have to refuse him this time....
Miraculously I didn't swear & I didn't shout, I am so proud of myself
I just told him that I didn't think it would work out, did he? And left it at that, I saved the shouting & ranting & swearing for here & my loyal readers! You may remove your earplugs now, calmness has returned, just. Lol xxx