23 December 2007

Gutted



It was a no.

I got the letter on Thursday & the answer was "No". Basically, something that I didn't think would affect me, does. I didn't think it would affect me because it doesn't affect anything else in my life & doesn't affect me or what I do but apparently it means that I'm not upto/suitable for the Job. What really guts me is that I got good marks apart from that.

I was absolutely gutted when I read the letter & the reason, I even cried!

But it isn't as bleak as it first appeared as there are a number of options open to me which may mean I can get around it.

Option 1. Become a Special & "prove" myself before applying to the regs.

Option 2. Write to other forces & find out what their guidelines are.

Option 3. Find out if anybody else has my problem & whether they've managed to serve as a PC.

Option 4. Become a PCSO & get into the regs. that way (I really don't want this but if I have to do it, I will.)

Whatever I do I now have alot to think about because whatever I decide will affect me long term & also change my life because it's looking increasingly like relocation which actually, I'm not that bothered about as it is looking like the Met. I wanted to transfer there after probation anyway so it isn't too bad.

I've had lots of help from two people & they are continuing to be a help & find out what they can so that is excellent & much appreciated. If they are reading this then they know who they are. Thanks guys xx


The thing is, I really, really want this. I know I would be up to the job & I know that it is what I want, I'm as sure as I can be without actually doing the job that I'd be good at it, I'm good with people, I can handle things & handle myself & I love being part of a team & doing the best I can for people. I know I'd be willing to muck in & I know that it is the job for me & whatever it takes I am determined to get a "yes" eventually. Even if I have to go about it through a different path or it takes me a few years to achieve I am determined that I will get there.

I really want it & getting a no has proven to me just how much I do want it.
The steely determination I have comes in handy sometimes!
I will keep you all updated :o)


63 comments:

pawpads said...

Oh bad luck. What shitty news ~ and so close to Christmas too.
Chin up though and I'm sure you'll soon turn this around for yourself.

Emma said...

I am really sorry GND, you are a strong character though and you won't be down for long...go get em girl whichever way you can...have a wonderful christmas darl..xx

cogidubnus said...

Gutted with you...I'm glad to hear you're already thinking up ways around it though...a sure indication of your inner strength...

Don't let it overshadow or spoil your special Christmas though....

PC South West said...

Don't get too down about it as it's not the end of the world and I have a feeling it's not the end of your chance. Send me an email and I will try and give you some ideas if you tell me all the ins and outs.
You sound pretty determined to do this and thats half the battle won.
Sorry about your bad news :o(

Noddy said...

GND,

There are a lot of variations between forces. My last probationer couldn't get into one force because of mild colour blindness, but our force accepted him.

Good luck and do persevere!

Merry Crimbo onywiy quine.

Noddy

Annette said...

I'm sorry to hear that GND. But as they all say please don't let it spoil your christmas.
Try again in the new year.
xxx

Metcountymounty said...

sorry to hear that mate, it's their loss. I'm not surprised they suggest being a PCSO first though. The upside is you can earn £28k for doing it in central london and you basically walk around giving directions and having Police backup on hand so if you are desperate it's a foot in the door. If it is still want you want then don't give up on it, anything that doesn't kill you makes you stronger and all that :o)

All things considered, I hope you have a good christmas and a happier new year x

dickiebo said...

So sorry, pal. Although I have advised you against joining, I know how much you want to. That spirit WILL take you through.
My very best wishes - no, not for Xmas! - but for your future. 'Twill be a bright one. I know.

Ing said...

Sometimes the recruitment process is just utterly random - a friend of mine scored A's & B's across the board at CENTREX and still got rejected for his force. He's taking the PCSO though. It may not be as bad as you think.; Going into the regulars straight from civvy street as been a massive life-change for me, whereas if you take the PCSO route you'll get a good feel for the job and have your foot in the door for next time round.
Chin up hon - you've got a passion for the job, which is a damn sight more than some oficers I've encountered. Merry Christmas & all the best for 2008!

Waynecoff said...

just wishing you a happy christmas, xx

Excessive Use said...

Don't give up! Determination is, in fact, everything. It's what drives you to meet the requirements, do all the paperwork, schedule all the appointments, etc etc etc, necessary to getting what you want - a career in Law Enforcement. You're still really young, too, don't forget that.

thoughts running through my head.... said...

what!?I am shocked mate-if it helps put things in perspective,I didnt get in first time either,and I still cant see why.Go through your options,you can appeal depending on why you didnt get etc,but its probably not worth doing that tbh-too stressful.I dont know why you got the big no,but try another force (even the metrocomicals if you need to haha !!)you'll do it,even if it is harder for you than other recruits!Let me know if you want any help etc.I feel gutted for you.

Little Wing said...

Sorry to hear of your disapointment, but as they say, everything happens for a reason.
Stay strong, and if it was meant to be, it will.
Have a great Christmas!

PC South West said...

Merry Christmas

Inspector Gadget said...

Merry Christmas, get in touch by leaving me a comment on my Blog and I'll see if there is anything I can do to help.

Girl With The Golden Touch said...

Hugs darling, can't believe it was a no but I really hope this hasn't ruined your Christmas or anything. Like TRTMH said, she didnt get in first time. Xxx

Busy said...

Sorry to hear your news. Things are rarely set in stone in recruitment though. Good luck.
Merry Christmas.

Wozza said...

Very sorry to hear that but, as others have said, if you want it badly enough and persevere you will get it in the end !

I hope that you have had a good Christmas and I wish you a very happy new year - may it bring you everything that you want!

Seeing as we have established that we like the same music I thought that you might like this, she is a friend of mine and very very good.

http://www.myspace.com/hollierogersonline

W

totallyun-pc said...

OMG bad news. I wasn't going to post cos I didn't have anything encouraging on the tip of my tongue, but I chatted with a couple of My PCSO's and they both said the same thing, they were basically cajoled into taking this job, but now see it as a well paid way of preparing for the regulars. So its not a bad option... just not the preferred one, and you will be paid well while you take a chance to see if its really what you want before you 20 weeks of training and decide its not for you... Its worth a good think.

I've kind of warmed to the PCSO's who have the right motives and attitudes. Thats saying something coming from a dinosaur like me!!!

thoughts running through my head.... said...

blimey TUPC,are you going soft or summink?

Alice said...

Oh, dear - so sorry. I have some idea of how you feel as I got The Letter just before Christmas a few years ago, telling me I wasn't up to becoming an architect. Made me all the more determined to do it, and I hope it has the same effect on you. Gather your strength over the hols and go for it in the New Year.

Best of luck xxx

Roses said...

Hi honey.

I'm so sorry to hear of your news. But what really gives me hope - you're not giving up. Stubborness is definitely the way forward. Maybe doing PCSO is a round about way of getting there, but get there you will. You've got the spirit and the support sweetie.

We have faith in you.

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Girl With The Golden Touch said...

Wow, what a helpful comment you've left. Twat.

Emma said...

Anon - Your all the same until you have to dial 999 yourself...go play with cars if you haven't got anything more interesting to contribute....

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Emma said...

Sorry you had to fall pray to idiot Anon, he must be out on release for xmas..

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RandomPinkness said...

Awww, love I go away from my feedreader for a week and all sorts happens. I'll be thinking of you and I'm sure with those two helping you'll be in in no time. :) Hope you have a fab new year and except for this your Christmas was lovely. Hey if it all falls through again I'm sure we can make this ninja/spy/assassin business pay.

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Metcountymounty said...

what a sad twat!!! happy new year mate, the flip side of being trolled is you obviously have found something to annoy the sad little prick and it angers him, the time spent pressing ctrl+v repeatedly shows impressive commitment though!!!

SandDancer said...

So sorry to hear your bad news and that the idiot spammer has returned. But you sound like you are already thinking positively and I'm sure you will find a way.

The Thin Blue Line said...

don't let this stop you following your dream mate! You will be a bobby one day, and it'll be all the sweeter when you do pull on the uniform xx

PC South West said...

It's a lot easier to avoid comments from such pond life brain dead underclass on wordpress.

thoughts running through my head.... said...

keep going hun,then you'll have the pleasure of nicking twats like that!!its a perk of the job!

Mousie said...

Don't give up, chick.

Took me a few years to get into an A&E job after wanting it for so long, but if you keep the faith you'll not go wrong.

Look to the future: What's for you won't go by you...

Happy New Year xxx

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